.: January 2013

Pageant is in 5 days, here are just a few of my thoughts.

TV: Because we have the opportunity to be on TV we will get a one on one cameo to talk about our platform. I will get to share with Idaho what I am doing and send them straight to my web page to contact me if they wish. This is a really neat experience to me! I remember the first time I attended the Mrs. ID International pageant. There was a section where the girls got to speak to the audience, about their platform etc. I remember being thankful I was not in that pageant because I felt that I could never do what they just did with memorization etc! This pageant, Mrs. ID United States is also very platform based. I chose to write and memorize a small speech about my platform. I didn’t think I’d be able to do that as well as I did. I was happy to know that I proved my thoughts wrong once again. We will not be speaking to the audience on stage with a speech, but I am happy to have it in my back pocket and use it if I need to tell anyone about what I am doing, in 30 seconds or so, or use it for my one on one Cameo J

Busy week, it’s really been a busy few months, but the last 2 weeks are really busy. I have had to be very strategic with placing all the appointments of the silly girlie things that need done, such as nails, hair, waxing {yikes} spray tan, still making it to the gym daily etc. A juggling act for sure, I believe that the Mrs. Pageant doesn’t have a talent section because just doing pageant with kids and a husband and everything going on is talent enough!

Anyone who has done pageant knows it can be a daily emotional roller coaster, one day we are totally confident, the next totally overwhelmed, possibly doubting ourselves and thinking “what am I doing here?!” haha I’m sure I will go through all of these emotions once again next week, Pageant starts on Thursday for us girls. That is basically 3 days from now to get done all I need to before pageant night Friday.

Evening gown: Well I went to pick up my dress yesterday, I was 15 minutes late {you know how that happens getting kids into the car etc} anyway I didn’t realize that she closed at 3 on Saturdays! I was planning on spending all day Sunday sewing the gems and sparklies on my gown. The seamstress had called my home phone when I was gone and left her cell phone #, told me if I needed the dress she would go back. I called her and she didn’t answer, but then the weather got really cruddy and I didn’t want to go back out into it or make her do the same. So I will just be sewing my little heart out the next few days after I pick it up on Monday! It looks REALLY plain without any sparklies I pray the bling helps it out a lot. My dress is a Grecian style gown, empire waistline. I’m sure a lot of people won’t like it when they see it, If I go to nationals I will get something totally fitted to show off my hard work with my smaller waist. J

Dance number: The opening number is honestly giving me the most grief. I am not a dancer, I have some serious anxiety about it all but for me it’s all part of the growth process. Luckily they had the moves recorded online for us to learn and we have practiced a few times as a group. If we want to grow in life, we are going to have to be willing to be uncomfortable. Learning a dance number is really part of this for me. I will just do my best, that’s all anyone can ask of anyone else, so I just ask this of myself.

onstage questions: I have been informed that the judges will be writing the questions that will be asked on stage this year. They truly do want us to be surprised by the questions. I have never seen politics be in the Mrs. Pageants, I don’t know if they do this on purpose but I just haven’t ever seen a political question be asked. I am not sure If we will get politics or not and I am a bit afraid of getting anything political. I don’t like having a strong opinion on anything because I know that there is always things I do not know or may not fully understand. I do believe however that any problems that we deal with in the govt, can be helped by starting in our own homes. If we want to help stay out of debt in this nation, stay out of debt as a family etc. It begins with US!

Being onstage in general doesn’t really bother me, I am not afraid of being in front of a crowd. I am thankful for this, I remember a time way back when, when this was harder for me. It’s just something I chose to overcome, and have so far succeeded.

I don’t want to come out of this experience wishing I would have tried harder, or feel like I’ve sold myself short in anyway. I will just enjoy myself, and try my best with the knowledge I have gained.

It’s easy to feel insecure about all the training I haven’t received, or worry that the other girls have more of an advantage over me because of some training. As much as training can help, we are all so different and have such different things to offer the state of Idaho. Not to mention, different judges, different night, different winner. I am where I am in life, it’s either enough for those judges that night, or it isn’t but neither is bad. I FIRMLY believe whoever wins is who is supposed to win. If I take home the crown, I will do my best as queen for the year, I will take the title and run with it! If I don’t take the crown, my goals will not change. I will still just keep on doing what I have been before I ever signed up for pageant. I am excited for the opportunity to be on TV and share my platform with the state of Idaho. This could open a lot of doors for me that I wouldn’t have had the chance for otherwise. I am overall, just thankful for the experiences pageant has presented to me in my life, and for the support and love I have been shown by EVERYONE. It’s truly humbling to know I’m loved by those I know. Thank You everyone!

Over all I think I am ready…at least that is how I feel today J Can’t wait to hear who is going cheering! Thanks a million!

HUGS~ Tina